So today I was out to do some stuff in FF14 with some people when suddenly some people I know by chance just showed up and I guess they just tagged along by obligation. I don’t necessarily have a problem with these people but I feel like it’s very stifling because I can’t be myself when I’m around more and more people — holding back my power level if you will. It’s also a bit tiring because having to keep track of more people than was originally expected starts to become annoying and I guess just by the prospect of being amicable about it, I just keep my trap shut and don’t really instigate anything because I would rather just let things blow over and be done with it. Well, at least I can say that I did what I wanted to do but fuck me it wasn’t that pleasant and I felt more relieved that the thing was fucking over with than the experience of doing the entire thing to begin with.